“The Universe is under no obligation to make sense to you” Neil deGrasse Tyson
This past week there has been the underlying theme of what’s up? So many people have asked. How can I language the extensive recursions I am in? The surges of a new reality streaming into my system to others not attuned to these new ways of being? I only know that somehow, reaching out to simply ask for help while my field is ‘under construction’ has been the main deal. Everyone I have asked for assistance has been so gracious, and also so endearing!
I only know that my life again changed drastically this past Wednesday. Working with the Observing Being creation exercise has been really helpful. I love how this particular exercise really gives me a magnifying glass to see the complex aspects of life that appear minute to the naked eye, yet enlarge perspectives so beautifully.
When I am writing an Observing or Observing Being exercise now, I feel as though the person of me falls away, like I am an audience member watching a play of someone else’s life. I literally feel the walls of my room fall away, and I am taken somewhere else. I can only hear what messages are coming through to type, and there is no emotion around this. I am only the typist, the outsider taking notes. When I go back to read what has been written, I become the observer of my own life, opening information someone else has observed. This is what it feels like, though I know it was that aspect of me working in line with Creation alchemically to inform the other aspects of me. Many aspects of this field have been merging over time, yet I am still feeling this overall wise, huge aspect that is the observer that talks through the creation exercises, or talks and is the ‘message relayer’ in moments when I know I am channeling Creation’s messages to others.
What blows me away every time I become a receiver after writing the Observing and Observing Being exercises, is the depth of the messages received, and the amazement I feel when the depth of the messages downloads. I say, “Wow, this is so cool!” I agree with Tantra that we don’t necessarily trust ourselves quite yet, though I feel on the verge of this knowing. To be in the amazement of what is gleaned from being the observer is part of the magic. To see inside of something to discern when my field could not see the sunlight in between the trees in the forest is such a gift!
A newer activity I have been trying on especially in the last couple of weeks, is really going back to re-read the recursions more slowly. Usually, I would read the exercise as a whole, and download the main aspects of what I could see. Now, I take more time and really read each recursion slowly because each is so different, though the themes of what is being relayed can be similar. I really see this practice like eating a good salad. Each recursion gives me many new nutrients, and taking them in more slowly allows the new depth of thought to infuse more deeply into the cells, just like a water and fruit infuser might infuse the fruit flavors given more time to do so.
So what is up? The Universe talks through these observing recursions and assists my field in making sense…or sometimes not. But more than not, ah-ha’s are popping up, gifting me, pinging my field, clearing the path for the next now’s. No answers…I don’t really work in answers anymore. My camera lens hones in on what is observed, takes pictures, and commits them to memory to then use as tools to play in what’s up now. Yes…using the exercises of observing and observing being are wonderful tools to see what’s up, or to be a witness to what’s up. What’s up in your field? Playing with your camera lens can be such a rewarding experience!