Have you ever had something so compelling that it blew you over come into existence in many forms at once? The past two weeks have given my field the experience of this new ‘tool’ over and over in wave after wave. Usually when I learn something new, it happens over time and seeps slowly into my cells. This new practice is flooding my cells at a rapid pace, almost too quickly for it to seep in. It’s like a bucket of stuff dumped itself into the body and the cells quickly gobbled it all up, and are hungering for more!
During the latest mentoring session with my Nurtured Heart Approach Coach, we explored ‘the million straws’ tool. What this means, is you take a situation that is intense, either positive or challenging, and drink the energy up through the million straws. Then you take that intensity and turn it around and turn it into rocket fuel. I can easily take the energy in through the straws, though I just suck it up all at once…straws don’t work for me. But I was having trouble with how to transfer the energy, as the energy was just sitting there…I couldn’t get the hang of it. I realize now it IS like riding a bike. Once your body has it, you’re good. These last two weeks, I got the balance of it.
What worked for me was imagining a cave that was really deep, and each time I took in the energy of a challenging situation at work or home, or out in the world, I would draw in the energy, and then turn it into manure…yep…like horse poop! Then I took the poop and dropped it into the cave. I literally heard it dropping! When I heard it dropping, then I got the image of compost, and the heat that rises off of it as it was doing its thing. Next, I took the heat and breathed it in…no…it doesn’t smell bad! I don’t smell it! I take it into every cell. This was felt as a huge fire in the solar plexus that feeds the power in the systems, empowering my being to do what it needs to do in the next moments. Sometimes that means speaking in a firm yet loving voice. Sometimes it means saying ‘no’. Sometimes it means becoming teary because the power of it all is so huge, and I feel it with expanded love.
There have been days this past week, when I felt the manure to be all used up. Work has been super intense. Breathing in all that has occurred, then transmitting it back…yes transmitting, not transmuting. Sometimes I transmit to a parent, sometimes to a child, sometimes to an entire team of people, sometimes to the universe. And by transmitting, I mean giving the energy back…recycled into power.
Tantra has talked about taking the emotion and breathing it until it is in a neutral point. This is awesome! Taking that intensity, both positive and intensely challenging, and bringing the emotion to a point of neutrality will then create something new, “In a newly formed operating state”, according to Tantra. This is something new to practice. Being in that neutral operating state brings the power to its finest state, where so much is possible.
The best part of these million straws, is that I can literally feel the angst turn to power now. I am working on turning the intensity of a happy situation into power. I am thinking I just experience this differently. Usually I cry, or feel like an elder, touching someone tenderly, or hugging a child, or my partner. There is always something new to track, and something new to play with and explore. Isn’t it fun?!!!