How is your experience of being ‘you’ different now than it was earlier in your life? As a normal part of life, we do shift our thoughts about ‘who we are’ as the experiences of our life increase as we grow older. You are not the 20-year-old or the 30-year-old anymore. You have the wisdom, the trauma, the joys of your life experience. Yet, some of those traumas are like wounds that persist and never heal. My experience is that over the past four years of writing the Creation Exercises and being part of the Spirals of Being, I no longer have unhealed wounds. I remember that those old traumas occurred, but I don’t have any emotional weight to those memories. As far as I can tell, as the emotional memories of a trauma faded, somehow more space was created for me to be more of ‘how I had hoped I would be’. It hasn’t been a smoothly flowing process, as I had several strong beliefs about what I had to do to get things to happen in the Institute and in the world. News flash to me. That excessive drive to do and carry the load, well, it got in the way of me being more, of me having a larger field to give residency to all that I had hoped to be and do.
Last January, Tantra and I called for a reset of the Institute. At that point, it meant that all previous agreements of to-do’s were ended, and all the pressure to perform on a schedule were ended. Afterwards each person committed to give what and when they wanted to give to this evolving matrix of connection. It has hard when it occurred as we each had our own fears and pressures. And it has been amazing. A stronger larger matrix of the Institute formed. Everyone involved has claimed what is theirs to do and be, and all have experienced growth in being their Being. We all have remarked how we experience more of each other’s Being in our interactions as well.
As I experience each of the Advocates of the Institute now, they are showing more of their unique and essential selves to us everyday. I am in awe of what is occurring. We all used the Creation Templates 3 & 4 to help us redefine words and concepts that were not serving us. We all paid attention to our sentient intelligence. For each of us, those energies, pressures, sensations, which are our sentient intellligence, are different. Yet in those different perceptions, we knew to perceive them as new information and not historical reruns. Thus becoming aware of our sentient intelligence has been critical in moving forward on our journey of transformation. I highly recommend that you start to pay attention to and track your Sentient Intelligence. Without that recognition of your own sentient intelligence, you don’t have a way to track what is occurring.
Place yourself first in the coming months. Commit to yourself and your own unfolding. Honestly the gift of discovering your unique and essential Being comes from resetting your life, making sure that you enjoy life, regularly writing the creation exercises, and becoming aware of your own sentient intelligence. Join the 90 Day Creation Project to give yourself the time and space to crave and observe and deepen your connections to your unique and essential aspect of Creation.