Invisibility and Embodiment by Elektra Porzel
Many of us have experienced invisibility as a cloak that we donned in this lifetime in order to survive in this society. We used it to hide our larger nature of Being from showing, as we had learned early on that it was not welcome in this culture or in our families. In my case, I was # 3 in my sibling lineup with #4 coming one year after and #5 18 months later. Somewhere in the busyness of family life, I learned that I was invisible in terms of being seen in both the human and higher nature forms. That invisibility also served my needs in that it helped me manage the tumult of the group. I could move thru chaos without being noticed. Ours was a family dominated by the extroverts and the introverts watched. So, I also perceived and took to heart a message that ‘we will tell you when we want to hear from you’. The me that I wanted them to hear was my larger nature, not the child or the adult. Yet, it seemed that none of those perspectives were actually requested, too much was going on.
My problem with learning invisibility as a child is that the habit stayed with me into adulthood. If people didn’t ask me to tell them what I knew, I didn’t tell them. If they didn’t ask me how I could help them, I didn’t tell them. Only in sessions in my healing practice or in coaching sessions where people asked for the information or the healing, did I share. I have noticed that I do this even now in my life at 70 years of age. I have kept the perspective of my deeper nature quiet and allowed the world to see only the human administrator side or the teacher side. Today a friend commented that I had a very soft heart and she knew that it was so different from the teacher that I give face to in the world. I agreed as my heart spoke to the field of protection of it that I have maintained over the years.
Such a great aha! In practicing invisibility, my nature of my Being and my soft heart are invisible to all except a few. By waiting for the others to hear what my Being says, I am actually keeping her from speaking. In practicality, I know that I must speak from my nature of Being with no expectation of being heard. She/I need to BE out in the world. Eventually, visibility will become natural to me and my soft heart will not have to be so defended. The teacher will become softer and speak more from my heart and my nature of Being. I sense a fierceness that I have not shown to the world much during this lifetime. As I speak more as ‘who I am’, then a new dynamic will arise between myself and Creation, between myself and others. A vertical relationship with the nature of my Being will be dominant. Thus embodiment will come as I take off the cloak of invisibility and stand in whom I came here to be.
I think that many of us were invisible in this lifetime, at least as far as being our nature of Being. Isn’t it exciting that as each of us moves into a living of our nature of Being, we all get to experience this divine aspect of the other! So, let’s all throw away our cloaks of invisibility and stand in the truth of our Being!! Let us each speak from this nature knowing that it is the speaking that is critical, not that someone should totally grok what we are speaking! We are all here to impact humanity and the world in some way. In order to do that, we must speak and act. All that each of us might have to do is impact one person and then our job may be done. The only problem here is that, as Tantra has said, you will never know who that one person is. So, let’s all dance in this vertical relationship with our nature of Being and Creation. In that dance of loving life, loving each other, loving the earth, I am clear that whole new realities will be born.
