Connected to an Animated Life

by Sahere Humm

When I first met the field of Tantra Maat and she stated the field was about ‘what connects us to life and has us exist as whole’.  I experienced a resonance to what she was saying.  It was a yeah, yeah, I can move with that.  I really thought for me, it was my connection to joy.  If I could figure out what brought me joy I could then make sure and include it in my life.  Yet when I would look at what brought me joy I really couldn’t find any definite registers.  I was looking for a feeling or sensation and it wasn’t there.  My joy was still residing in the deep listening that didn’t have any sensations, sensitivity or imagination.

It is from writing the Creation Exercises that I have built my strength, stamina and capacity for my sentient intelligence, my direct link to who or what I am, and my direct link to Creation, and this, has shifted my relationship to that question.  Now the words ‘what connects me to life and has me exist as whole’ have become more animated with registers from my sentient intelligence that I didn’t have before.

The other night, my windows were open and I awoke for some reason.  I could hear the wind outside alive and vibrant.  The wind was whistling through the leaves and I could feel it swirling around as a wind storm was moving through.  I found myself connecting in with the sound of the movements.  I was in communion with the air/wind through the vibrations of sound and I found myself alive and excited.   The more animated the wind got the more animated I got.  Several nights after that I heard the wind again as another wind storm moved through.  Excitement was upon me.  I felt like a good friend has come back to visit and I was excited to be with it once again.

This memory has been with me and I return to it often because it was so resonant to me.  The other day I thought, this is what connects me to life and has me exist as whole.  It’s not the secular playing field that connects me as much as it is the etheric and I am building my registers of connection with it through my sentient intelligence that I didn’t have before writing the Creation Exercises.

It’s not the same for everyone.  We are each unique and essential and have our own registers.  So do you know what connects you to life and has you exist as whole?  I’d wager it’s not something that resides outside of you.